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2013-05-09 11:32:59 PM  

Smock Pot: I know I'm late to the thread, but wow. I have been dealing with debilitating depression and just started taking  an antidepressant, which is supposed to get worse before it gets better. Today, all I've done (from bed) is cry, stare at the wall, and look at websites.

/Not really getting a kick
//cause I can't feel much of anything
///rimshot


I know the feeling hang in there. 2 months ago or so I went back on Prozac, I know it works for me it just took a month or 2 too adjust to it. It's not easy but hang in there and hope you have a good therapist and shrink.
 
2013-05-09 11:33:04 PM  
These threads are always a valuable read. It's nice to think that maybe someday I'll fix me. I mean, I won't, but still. It's good to have a dream.
 
2013-05-09 11:34:28 PM  

buckler: I've been going through a major depression for months now. I'm starting therapy next week because I've found myself eyeballing rope at the store, and determined an anchor point on my back porch where neighborhood children won't see. Told the neighbor that if she found a note on her door asking her to call police and paramedics, she'd know why. My place is a wreck because I can't work up the motivation to do housework, and even personal hygiene is a chore. I would not wish this on my worst enemy.


I'm glad you're going to see someone. I hope they can help you. Good luck to you. :)
 
2013-05-09 11:34:41 PM  
I can only imagine how many people are in this thread talking about the depressions they're going through or have been through and probably, if they're like I was, how scared they are about possibly going through another one.

There have been a ton of these threads on Fark over the many years I've been hanging around the joint, and I've participated in many of them, often looking for help.  I can't read this whole thread, because I'd want to say to everyone currently suffering, individually, some sort of specific kind of "hey, I've never been exactly where you are, but I've been nearby! C'mon, man! If I can do it, you can too!". But I won't, because that always sounds false when you're on the receiving end of it.

I didn't have a piece of corn, more like an escalating series of excruciating and/or joyous head slaps as I took the long, slow rebound from bottom.  Some training in mindfulness was an essential piece.

If someone told me even two years ago how much joy I'd get from the simplest things these days, I'd never have believed it.  It took a really long time to get here, and it has been really hard.  Off the top of my head it was 6 therapists/psychiatrists before I found this one, who was the first with whom I was like: "okay, this might work".  And that was a slim light in very dark days, believe me.

And here I am.  Walking home from the streetcar today, I had a spring in my step because work this week has been  busy and interesting, and I'm really looking forward to seeing that one woman this weekend, and those blooming cherry trees I just passed smelled fantastic and is that a freshly-opened lilac leaning over the sidewalk? Ima take a snootfull! Ahhhhhh! So good.  So, so good.

Trust me when I say - I have never been where you are.  No one but you ever has been.  But I've been in the neighborhood. If you're at or near bottom, you may doubt you'll feel anything ever again, let alone joy.  I can't say you will, but you might.  I hope that's good enough.

/ it's hard
// no, really, it's really hard
/// while you're going through it, don't let anyone tell you otherwise
// worth it
/ so, so worth it
 
2013-05-09 11:36:00 PM  
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2013-05-09 11:36:15 PM  

buckler: I've been going through a major depression for months now. I'm starting therapy next week because I've found myself eyeballing rope at the store, and determined an anchor point on my back porch where neighborhood children won't see. Told the neighbor that if she found a note on her door asking her to call police and paramedics, she'd know why. My place is a wreck because I can't work up the motivation to do housework, and even personal hygiene is a chore. I would not wish this on my worst enemy.


Sounds like you are in a really bad spot. When my depression creeps back I try to learn something new or do something different.  It motivates me to do other things. What do you like to do in your free time?
 
2013-05-09 11:39:49 PM  

jimmythrust: I hate to admit this, but Paxil saved my ass many moons ago. I'm so glad to have gotten over getting off it, but I found that chemistry-free living was unmanageable, and now take my meds with the nonchalance of a cigar smoker in Havana. It took years to accept that this was just going to have to be the norm for me, and that I needed 'em to function. I'd love to live free of meds, but I'd hate to go back to where I was. Acceptance sucks, therapy hurts, and remedies mostly cure symptoms, but rarely the diseases (disorders, irregularities, whatever). My point is that it takes years. We have to put in the years. The other options are all bad. And it's incredibly depressing to even talk about our depression most of the time. I wouldn't say that I 'love this thread so much', but maybe there's a picture of a cat who isn't totally happy, but not bummed out, either, somewhere on the internet I can find...

/grateful to the posters
//thankful to the suggesters
///shakas and good vibes to the sufferers


Glad you found something that worked for ya, that can be one of the really difficult things I've found, Paxil for instance did not work for me. Also I'm very bad about stopping the meds once I've been feeling better for awhile, and end up right back where I was. Granted it may take a year sometimes longer but it happens : (
 
2013-05-09 11:41:25 PM  
And to the Farkers currently in the shiat, my best advice would be to go seek treatment. Open the phone book for your state and start making some phone calls. Or get on the Google and search for "[your state] state mental health treatment". It's something concrete you can do to get yourself back on track.
 
2013-05-09 11:43:15 PM  

Theory Of Null: buckler: I've been going through a major depression for months now. I'm starting therapy next week because I've found myself eyeballing rope at the store, and determined an anchor point on my back porch where neighborhood children won't see. Told the neighbor that if she found a note on her door asking her to call police and paramedics, she'd know why. My place is a wreck because I can't work up the motivation to do housework, and even personal hygiene is a chore. I would not wish this on my worst enemy.

Sounds like you are in a really bad spot. When my depression creeps back I try to learn something new or do something different.  It motivates me to do other things. What do you like to do in your free time?


Nothing. I can surf the web literally all day. Hard for me to believe I was once a semi-professional cartoonist; nothing seems enjoyable or funny anymore. Getting a visit from a good friend in a couple weeks, and she always makes me feel a little happier
 
2013-05-09 11:43:54 PM  

Kittypie070: [t1.gstatic.com image 150x149]


That looks much like my kitty.
farm9.staticflickr.com
/Wut?
 
2013-05-09 11:47:13 PM  

BoothbyTCD: The emotionlessness/numbness/mindlessness of depression is the exact opposite of the mindfullness of good Buddhist practice.


Thank you for mentioning this.
 
2013-05-09 11:49:38 PM  

Guntram Shatterhand: Kenny.....Loggins.


I still get random outbursts of snickering and giggling whenever Kenny's existence comes up
 
2013-05-09 11:52:24 PM  
Kittypie070: One medication I take is actually secondarily prescribed for weight loss and quitting smoking, and while I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any either.

Wellbutrin?  Apparently the pharmaceutical reps back in the 90's were instructed to tell their physicians that Wellbutrin made clients "happy, horny, and skinny."
 
2013-05-09 11:57:14 PM  

buckler: I can surf the web literally all day. Hard for me to believe I was once a semi-professional cartoonist; nothing seems enjoyable or funny anymore. Getting a visit from a good friend in a couple weeks, and she always makes me feel a little happier


Yea, I generally do that or watch stupid movies all day when I'm bad off and I know the things that might make me feel better but doing those things when I'm in that shiat mode is next to impossible. Best wishes, meds can help and therapy really does work just stick with it it's not easy finding the right meds or the right therapist but it can be done.
 
2013-05-09 11:58:12 PM  

buckler: <b><a href="http://www.fark.com/comments/7743389/84123996#c84123996" target="_blank">Theory Of Null</a>:</b> <i>buckler: I've been going through a major depression for months now. I'm starting therapy next week because I've found myself eyeballing rope at the store, and determined an anchor point on my back porch where neighborhood children won't see. Told the neighbor that if she found a note on her door asking her to call police and paramedics, she'd know why. My place is a wreck because I can't work up the motivation to do housework, and even personal hygiene is a chore. I would not wish this on my worst enemy.

Sounds like you are in a really bad spot. When my depression creeps back I try to learn something new or do something different.  It motivates me to do other things. What do you like to do in your free time?</i>

Nothing. I can surf the web literally all day. Hard for me to believe I was once a semi-professional cartoonist; nothing seems enjoyable or funny anymore. Getting a visit from a good friend in a couple weeks, and she always makes me feel a little happier


I know what you mean. Seems like I have heard or seen everything at least once before. I would try cartooning again and take another approach to it maybe show your kids. Kids got some crazy imaginations and ideas.

I dunno, but the slightest change in my routine always makes me feel better about other things in life.
 
2013-05-09 11:58:16 PM  
Maybe everything isn't hopeless bullshiat.

No, it is.  Sorry.
 
2013-05-09 11:59:40 PM  

LDM90: Cato: SmackLT: Happy to see that she's back

fark you. No, seriously, fark YOU. This isn't about you and whether or not you can read amusing things on the Internet. This is a human being who is in the middle of the black hole of depression. I don't care if she ever blogs again, as long as she gets the help she needs and can find her way back into the world outside the abyss. I've been there (not nearly as bad as her, but enough to see how terrifying it is) and I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. I don't care that she was one of the funniest people on the net (and she really was). Her being "back" is irrelevant. Her being ALIVE is.

I think they kinda meant both at the same time. Either way, I'm not sure why it warrants a double Fark you.


Because it's f'n tacky. "Oh, I'm so glad you worked out your issues and no longer want to KILL YOURSELF so that you can be 'back'".

That absolutely deserves a double fark you.
 
2013-05-10 12:03:02 AM  

CynicalLA: radarlove: CynicalLA: Adderall is a serious drug and hopefully you are taking it for the right reasons.

lol...they're ALL serious drugs.  In fact, of the three listed Adderal isn't even the most dangerous.  Just the most abused.

I've know a few people that went from Adderall to meth.  I think Adderall is a lot more addictive than the other ones.  Speed is a helluva drug.


That's probably because they didn't actually need the Adderall. When a person actually needs it for a health issue (like ADHD), it can be more destructive for them not to take it. It can help them cut back on other self-medicating behaviors like drinking too much.
 
2013-05-10 12:03:42 AM  
I really appreciate the good wishes. Thanks, all who offered.
 
2013-05-10 12:04:28 AM  

AverageAmericanGuy: I'm surprised at how modern medicine has missed what is so clear to the WebMDs here in this thread. Namely, that depression can be fixed by a good deep dicking.

Fark never ceases to amaze me.


Prozac and my BFF saved my life when I struggled with clinical depression last year. I have severe PMDD. My period stopped when I was sick for 10 years with a neuro disease. (I'd have it induced occasionally). I've struggled with feelings of wanting to commit suicide my entire life after puberty. But when I was in remission, despite the fact that after 10 years I wasn't in severe pain any more...I was crying every farking night and wanting to die. The anxiety was awful. Saw a shrink through my HMO, unfortunately she was a very new shrink and wanted to chalk it all up to essentially my line of work. Except my work and my BFF were the only things keeping me alive.

Got a new primary doc b/c I had moved to the Bay Area, he was phenom. He looked over everything, spent an hour talking to me about various subjects and asked why I was unwilling to try medication. I told him I wasn't unwilling to try ANYTHING. He asked if I would try prozac.

Normally it takes around 6 weeks for them to work. I have enough of a clinical psych. background to be a total pain in the ass. However, with PMDD what I did not know is with some people it works almost instantly.

It was like spending a year farking drowning in a violent sea where you just want to farking give up because it's SO exhausting, and nothingness sounds better than this constant mental anguish.

I had to adjust my prozac once (it stopped working and it came back like gangbusters). I'm on a very low dose, 40mg. I'm very lucky that it works for me and has relatively few side effects. I couldn't orgasm properly for six months. That was ...frustrating in a whole new way. And I love sex. I love it like you cannot imagine I love it. Orgasms are one of THE best things in life, and I pretty much try to have at least one daily.

I'm also lucky that the sexual side effects diminished, and today I only have problems orgasming if I'm doing something within like an hour or two of taking the prozac. Then it's like biking up a mountain, and if you get there...it fizzles. But other than rare instances of that...it's WONDERFUL.

I have friends who are very anti medication. My mother (who has HER background in behavioral science) is totally against me taking it. I had to tell her very bluntly that I wouldn't be alive without it. I was literally at the end of my rope.

But I wouldn't have made it out of that pit of depression without my BFF taking the reins and getting me to the doctor. I was willing to do anything, but the motivation to get up and do anything was utterly absent. You become someone who reacts and doesn't really act.

I was emo for a bit too on the meds. Got overloaded easily with some things that normally I wouldn't. I was also willing to do CBT (not the kink kind) but the medical doc who saved me, felt I really didn't need to.

And that doctor? The one who saved me? He wasn't taking new patients, but he agreed to take me on. It was literally an accident I saw him that day. Brilliant guy, but he had suffered a severe injury years before (spinal). After he got me well...he ended up reducing his practice to one day a week...and then was so ill, he wasn't making that. So I ended up switching primary docs again, even though I didn't want to. My new one is also awesome. But no one else even remotely considered PMDD, because my clinical depression was constant, and I'm older. He realized that due to the absence of a period, I had 10 years relatively symptom free. Then when it returned it was much, much worse because I hadn't been dealing with it for 10 years, plus it was like puberty again in a way.

Clinical depression sucks, and I'm one of the most naturally happy people you'll ever met. Which makes the whole 'snap out of it' mentality soooo much worse.

Still have some bad days, but nothing like that pit of despair. Her article was dead on.

I especially liked the crusty hoodie. I sooo went that route, thank god none of my clients saw that and my rat nest hair on cam or I'd have been out of work too. ;)

Anyway, any chick who wants to can easily get a deep dicking guys. We don't have to struggle to find sex like males. And if that cured depression, I wouldn't need medication. :D
 
2013-05-10 12:05:16 AM  

Alegria: Kittypie070: One medication I take is actually secondarily prescribed for weight loss and quitting smoking, and while I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any either.

Wellbutrin?  Apparently the pharmaceutical reps back in the 90's were instructed to tell their physicians that Wellbutrin made clients "happy, horny, and ski

tinfoil-hat maggie: jimmythrust: I hate to admit this, but Paxil saved my ass many moons ago. I'm so glad to have gotten over getting off it, but I found that chemistry-free living was unmanageable, and now take my meds with the nonchalance of a cigar smoker in Havana. It took years to accept that this was just going to have to be the norm for me, and that I needed 'em to function. I'd love to live free of meds, but I'd hate to go back to where I was. Acceptance sucks, therapy hurts, and remedies mostly cure symptoms, but rarely the diseases (disorders, irregularities, whatever). My point is that it takes years. We have to put in the years. The other options are all bad. And it's incredibly depressing to even talk about our depression most of the time. I wouldn't say that I 'love this thread so much', but maybe there's a picture of a cat who isn't totally happy, but not bummed out, either, somewhere on the internet I can find...

/grateful to the posters
//thankful to the suggesters
///shakas and good vibes to the sufferers

Glad you found something that worked for ya, that can be one of the really difficult things I've found, Paxil for instance did not work for me. Also I'm very bad about stopping the meds once I've been feeling better for awhile, and end up right back where I was. Granted it may take a year sometimes longer but it happens : (


I used to think people who complained about Paxil were just nuttier and in worse shape than me, but then I stopped taking the stuff and thought I was gonna permanently lose it. I'm so glad to have gotten away from it. And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!
 
2013-05-10 12:05:31 AM  

Cato: LDM90: Cato: SmackLT: Happy to see that she's back

fark you. No, seriously, fark YOU. This isn't about you and whether or not you can read amusing things on the Internet. This is a human being who is in the middle of the black hole of depression. I don't care if she ever blogs again, as long as she gets the help she needs and can find her way back into the world outside the abyss. I've been there (not nearly as bad as her, but enough to see how terrifying it is) and I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. I don't care that she was one of the funniest people on the net (and she really was). Her being "back" is irrelevant. Her being ALIVE is.

I think they kinda meant both at the same time. Either way, I'm not sure why it warrants a double Fark you.

Because it's f'n tacky. "Oh, I'm so glad you worked out your issues and no longer want to KILL YOURSELF so that you can be 'back'".

That absolutely deserves a double fark you.


Where did you get that out of a simple one sentence post? Should the poster have taken your reading too much into things and appended it with "on the road to better mental health" or the like? Why do you assume that the poster was being completely selfish?

Seriously, you came across as extremely reactionary.
 
2013-05-10 12:09:27 AM  

Alegria: Kittypie070: One medication I take is actually secondarily prescribed for weight loss and quitting smoking, and while I have not lost any weight, I have not gained any either.

Wellbutrin?  Apparently the pharmaceutical reps back in the 90's were instructed to tell their physicians that Wellbutrin made clients "happy, horny, and skinny."


Yuppers.
 
2013-05-10 12:09:44 AM  

buckler: I really appreciate the good wishes. Thanks, all who offered.


Hey just take care of yourself, and know your not alone a lot of people go through this and please don't do what you were talking about.
/And this is coming from someone that lost 20% of her kidney function doing something stupid but seemed like a good idea at the time.
 
2013-05-10 12:10:12 AM  

traylor: It's called apathy, not depression.


Uhhhhh....lolwut?

Apathy is a symptom of depression.

What you're saying is like saying "It's called blowing your nose, not a cold".
 
2013-05-10 12:13:02 AM  

LDM90: You sound just like my wife. Honestly it drives me nuts. I mean it's nice that she likes it while its happening but how can someone just NEVER think of it? I don't get it. My greatest wish is for an unsolicited BJ. Just one.


So quit pussy-footing around and tell her that.

Communication goes a long way to making the world a better place. Not just with BJs, but with being good and helpful to those with mental disorders instead of shooting stigma barbs.
 
2013-05-10 12:14:24 AM  

Theory Of Null: <b><a href="http://www.fark.com/comments/7743389/84124091#c84124091" target="_blank">buckler</a>:</b> <i><b><a href="http://www.fark.com/comments/7743389/84123996#c84123996" target="_blank">Theory Of Null</a>:</b> <i>buckler: I've been going through a major depression for months now. I'm starting therapy next week because I've found myself eyeballing rope at the store, and determined an anchor point on my back porch where neighborhood children won't see. Told the neighbor that if she found a note on her door asking her to call police and paramedics, she'd know why. My place is a wreck because I can't work up the motivation to do housework, and even personal hygiene is a chore. I would not wish this on my worst enemy.

Sounds like you are in a really bad spot. When my depression creeps back I try to learn something new or do something different.  It motivates me to do other things. What do you like to do in your free time?</i>

Nothing. I can surf the web literally all day. Hard for me to believe I was once a semi-professional cartoonist; nothing seems enjoyable or funny anymore. Getting a visit from a good friend in a couple weeks, and she always makes me feel a little happier</i>

I know what you mean. Seems like I have heard or seen everything at least once before. I would try cartooning again and take another approach to it maybe show your kids. Kids got some crazy imaginations and ideas.

I dunno, but the slightest change in my routine always makes me feel better about other things in life.



Oh my bad I missed the word neighborhood. But yeah I would try to do something new or change it up and good luck man.
 
2013-05-10 12:15:28 AM  

jimmythrust: And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!


Yep, if you need them you need em you need them. And everyone's different not all meds work for everyone, finding the right one can be a big thing. And it can be so true about the quitting on the meds.

/Oh, and thank you : )
 
2013-05-10 12:16:02 AM  

Bandito King: torusXL: TheOtherMisterP: I was in a decent mood until I started reading that....comic? Whatever it is. Everything about the page is just freaking creepy to me.

Well, that's what a lot of people are living through.

Are you just gonna ignore them because you feel creeped out about it?

No, I ignore them because it's what they seem to want. And because I desperately want to ignore them myself.

/not everyone has the same type of depression
//sounds like ennui, not depression at all
///some of us just grow the fark up and stop being so goddamn self-absorbed


Wow, you're a complete coward. That's about all I got.
 
2013-05-10 12:18:39 AM  
Awesome.
 
2013-05-10 12:27:24 AM  

mark12A: Creativity is a double edged sword. The hard wiring in your brain that makes you creative also makes you very susceptible to depression. It's the cross creative people just have to bear. I've been depressed since childhood. I've found that St. John's Wort keeps the blackest moods at bay, with only a little hit to my libido.

I bear my cross like a badge of honor. I've invented lots of things, got patents, been complimented on my writing skills, can make people laugh enough for them to seek out my company, even tho I'm weird as hell.

I understand that my feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness DO NOT reflect reality, merely a malfunction in my brain wiring. The Matrix movies sort of clarified that for me. Our perceptions of the world around us are the product of our brains creating our consciousness. Once you understand the processing malfunction is creating the feelings, and not actual facts, it becomes easier to fight off those feelings.

I chug along, like a farm laborer hoeing an endless field, and occasionally a little nugget of happiness or satisfaction turns up and I enjoy it, until the feeling fades and I go back to the dull existence of endlessly hoeing, in hopes of another nugget showing up. My pets help a lot. Keeping other people at arm's length helps, since it avoids potential hurt and angst.

I watch other people leading happy, satisfying lives and wonder how it feels, much like someone born with just one arm watches other people clap. I didn't create this depression, I was born to it. I've learned to live with it, just like the one armed man. I don't fear suicide, I see it as a last resort, like a test pilot being comforted by having an ejection seat to use if it becomes necessary.


Just went the thread again. Those last two paragraphs are just a perfect summation of me, sans pets.
 
2013-05-10 12:31:13 AM  

oMaJoJ: <b><a target="_blank" href="http://www.fark.com/comments/7743389/84123093">mark12A</a>:</b> <i>Creativity is a double edged sword. The hard wiring in your brain that makes you creative also makes you very susceptible to depression. It's the cross creative people just have to bear. I've been depressed since childhood. I've found that St. John's Wort keeps the blackest moods at bay, with only a little hit to my libido.

I bear my cross like a badge of honor. I've invented lots of things, got patents, been complimented on my writing skills, can make people laugh enough for them to seek out my company, even tho I'm weird as hell.

I understand that my feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness DO NOT reflect reality, merely a malfunction in my brain wiring. The Matrix movies sort of clarified that for me. Our perceptions of the world around us are the product of our brains creating our consciousness. Once you understand the processing malfunction is creating the feelings, and not actual facts, it becomes easier to fight off those feelings.

I chug along, like a farm laborer hoeing an endless field, and occasionally a little nugget of happiness or satisfaction turns up and I enjoy it, until the feeling fades and I go back to the dull existence of endlessly hoeing, in hopes of another nugget showing up. My pets help a lot. Keeping other people at arm's length helps, since it avoids potential hurt and angst.

I watch other people leading happy, satisfying lives and wonder how it feels, much like someone born with just one arm watches other people clap. I didn't create this depression, I was born to it. I've learned to live with it, just like the one armed man. I don't fear suicide, I see it as a last resort, like a test pilot being comforted by having an ejection seat to use if it becomes necessary.</i>

Just went the thread again. Those last two paragraphs are just a perfect summation of me, sans pets.


Yeah, well said man.
 
2013-05-10 12:33:32 AM  

tinfoil-hat maggie: jimmythrust: And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!

Yep, if you need them you need em you need them. And everyone's different not all meds work for everyone, finding the right one can be a big thing. And it can be so true about the quitting on the meds.

/Oh, and thank you : )


Oh I know they aren't for everyone--and some seem like they aren't for anyone! I just have a stick in my arse about them because a good friend will NOT seek out help and considers medication and therapy to be sorcery and witchcraft. As Brian and Jesus said, "There's just no pleasing some people".

/THM!
//stay awesome
 
2013-05-10 12:48:15 AM  
This piece really, REALLY hit home. Someone very close to me has hit almost every single phase she described, on top of me having my own battles since coming back from AFG. I just hope I don't continue down this path because I need to be there to help now.

/Rooting for her, for the person in my life, and for me.
 
2013-05-10 12:51:53 AM  

jimmythrust: tinfoil-hat maggie: jimmythrust: And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!

Yep, if you need them you need em you need them. And everyone's different not all meds work for everyone, finding the right one can be a big thing. And it can be so true about the quitting on the meds.

/Oh, and thank you : )

Oh I know they aren't for everyone--and some seem like they aren't for anyone! I just have a stick in my arse about them because a good friend will NOT seek out help and considers medication and therapy to be sorcery and witchcraft. As Brian and Jesus said, "There's just no pleasing some people".

/THM!
//stay awesome


Meds can be great, I just don't want the pill soup I know they are going to want to put me on, and have already attempted. "Oh, lessee, you have anxiety, depression, racing thoughts, nightmares (no I don't!), panic attacks, etc. . .  You need a different med for each symptom, and you'll probably need these meds to counteract the side effects of those meds."

Fark that nonsense.
 
2013-05-10 12:52:29 AM  

Lady Indica: AverageAmericanGuy: I'm surprised at how modern medicine has missed what is so clear to the WebMDs here in this thread. Namely, that depression can be fixed by a good deep dicking.

Fark never ceases to amaze me.

Prozac and my BFF saved my life when I struggled with clinical depression last year. I have severe PMDD. My period stopped when I was sick for 10 years with a neuro disease. (I'd have it induced occasionally). I've struggled with feelings of wanting to commit suicide my entire life after puberty. But when I was in remission, despite the fact that after 10 years I wasn't in severe pain any more...I was crying every farking night and wanting to die. The anxiety was awful. Saw a shrink through my HMO, unfortunately she was a very new shrink and wanted to chalk it all up to essentially my line of work. Except my work and my BFF were the only things keeping me alive.

Got a new primary doc b/c I had moved to the Bay Area, he was phenom. He looked over everything, spent an hour talking to me about various subjects and asked why I was unwilling to try medication. I told him I wasn't unwilling to try ANYTHING. He asked if I would try prozac.

Normally it takes around 6 weeks for them to work. I have enough of a clinical psych. background to be a total pain in the ass. However, with PMDD what I did not know is with some people it works almost instantly.

It was like spending a year farking drowning in a violent sea where you just want to farking give up because it's SO exhausting, and nothingness sounds better than this constant mental anguish.

I had to adjust my prozac once (it stopped working and it came back like gangbusters). I'm on a very low dose, 40mg. I'm very lucky that it works for me and has relatively few side effects. I couldn't orgasm properly for six months. That was ...frustrating in a whole new way. And I love sex. I love it like you cannot imagine I love it. Orgasms are one of THE best things in life, and I pretty much try to have at least one da ...


thanks for sharing your story.  I'm glad you found a couple of good docs who would listen to you and help you.  And who took PMDD seriously.
 
2013-05-10 12:53:18 AM  
Thought I had already lost everything, but went to a bankruptcy hearing on Monday. They noticed I still had a guitar, keyboard and a shred of hope left. They are correcting my oversight. Spent last night with a handful of (metaphorical) dead fish and thinking it would be real helpful if I just had a heart attack.

Skipped work tonight so I could avoid the world and sleep too much. Woke up and stumbled upon this. Wow. I really needed to see both Allie's story and this thread today.

Thanks to all of you who shared your stories.
 
2013-05-10 12:55:00 AM  
No, it is; you just find more creative ways to lie to yourself.
 
2013-05-10 12:58:51 AM  
Good luck to all dealing with their personal mental illnesses.

Not quite as eloquent or brave as Allie to be open about it, but yeah...been there, done that.

The only observation I can made though is that depression can lead to some fantastic dark humour. Used to be able to crack up all the volunteers at the suicide hotline (thank gourd they were there, I was at the point where I was scheduling the time I would spend talking to my friends because I didn;t want toburn them out, and drifting to the point where I was sure I had put too much on them, I was able to rationalize calling suicide hotlines because...hey, they volunteered for this!
 
2013-05-10 01:00:13 AM  
Insanely accurate description of depression.  I wonder how many people would give a shiat if she was fat and ugly though.  Yeah, that's what I thought.
 
2013-05-10 01:01:15 AM  

ultraholland: No, it is; you just find more creative ways to lie to yourself.


Or, you just pay to be drugged back into a state of blissful unawareness.
 
2013-05-10 01:01:20 AM  

daveUSMC: This piece really, REALLY hit home. Someone very close to me has hit almost every single phase she described, on top of me having my own battles since coming back from AFG. I just hope I don't continue down this path because I need to be there to help now.

/Rooting for her, for the person in my life, and for me.


Well remember the best thing you can do for her is to make sure you stay healthy, then just be supportive. Yea, I'm guessing you went through a lot and you do and should talk about that stuff to someone, I mean I can't imagine what that must have been like over there and adjusting to being back. Do take care of your self first and foremost. As I'm sure you know you be a help to anyone if you don't. I understand there is a stigma about seeking help in the military, if that's the case go to someone in private practice.

/Best wishes
 
2013-05-10 01:01:27 AM  

MacWizard: Thought I had already lost everything, but went to a bankruptcy hearing on Monday. They noticed I still had a guitar, keyboard and a shred of hope left. They are correcting my oversight. Spent last night with a handful of (metaphorical) dead fish and thinking it would be real helpful if I just had a heart attack.

Skipped work tonight so I could avoid the world and sleep too much. Woke up and stumbled upon this. Wow. I really needed to see both Allie's story and this thread today.

Thanks to all of you who shared your stories.


Hug/fistbump. I know what that like when you keep moving the goalposts of "I'm still okay because I still have / can do <this>." The latest one for me was my cellphone (been two months now, not likely to be able to afford to get it back). Now, as long as I can keep a little gas in my car. . .

/it's on E right now, but I should be able to fill it up this weekend. Haven't eaten yet today though. . .
 
2013-05-10 01:02:03 AM  

Peki: jimmythrust: tinfoil-hat maggie: jimmythrust: And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!

Yep, if you need them you need em you need them. And everyone's different not all meds work for everyone, finding the right one can be a big thing. And it can be so true about the quitting on the meds.

/Oh, and thank you : )

Oh I know they aren't for everyone--and some seem like they aren't for anyone! I just have a stick in my arse about them because a good friend will NOT seek out help and considers medication and therapy to be sorcery and witchcraft. As Brian and Jesus said, "There's just no pleasing some people".

/THM!
//stay awesome

Meds can be great, I just don't want the pill soup I know they are going to want to put me on, and have already attempted. "Oh, lessee, you have anxiety, depression, racing thoughts, nightmares (no I don't!), panic attacks, etc. . .  You need a different med for each symptom, and you'll probably need these meds to counteract the side effects of those meds."

Fark that nonsense.


Any doctor wanting to put you on more than two medications is probably a quack, and I couldn't agree with you more! It's not like I went to Hollywood Upstairs Medical College, but if I were you I'd run from the folks who want to over-medicate like that.
 
2013-05-10 01:02:49 AM  
ts4.mm.bing.net
 
2013-05-10 01:06:13 AM  

jimmythrust: Any doctor wanting to put you on more than two medications is probably a quack,


Fark: These were county docs at the free clinic.

/I can has socialized healthcare nao?
 
2013-05-10 01:07:07 AM  

Peki: jimmythrust: tinfoil-hat maggie: jimmythrust: And while I honestly hate to say it, but trust the meds! It's when we think we don't need them anymore that we need them more than ever...

//hearts to THM!

Yep, if you need them you need em you need them. And everyone's different not all meds work for everyone, finding the right one can be a big thing. And it can be so true about the quitting on the meds.

/Oh, and thank you : )

Oh I know they aren't for everyone--and some seem like they aren't for anyone! I just have a stick in my arse about them because a good friend will NOT seek out help and considers medication and therapy to be sorcery and witchcraft. As Brian and Jesus said, "There's just no pleasing some people".

/THM!
//stay awesome

Meds can be great, I just don't want the pill soup I know they are going to want to put me on, and have already attempted. "Oh, lessee, you have anxiety, depression, racing thoughts, nightmares (no I don't!), panic attacks, etc. . .  You need a different med for each symptom, and you'll probably need these meds to counteract the side effects of those meds."

Fark that nonsense.


Ya, I'd say get away from whoever was saying that.
One pill can generally do it all, believe me I've had some crazy people put me on some crazy stuff that was all wrong. As in ,no lithium want work I'm not bipolar. If I was, from what I've read half the stuff I have taken would have sent me into a manic state.Then it get's worse.

/It did get better though
 
2013-05-10 01:11:05 AM  

tinfoil-hat maggie: daveUSMC: This piece really, REALLY hit home. Someone very close to me has hit almost every single phase she described, on top of me having my own battles since coming back from AFG. I just hope I don't continue down this path because I need to be there to help now.

/Rooting for her, for the person in my life, and for me.

Well remember the best thing you can do for her is to make sure you stay healthy...


Haha, that's what I tell HER all the time. I think we bust each other out of our depression with our own worse depression. Every time I'm feeling that glazed over "wait, what exactly is it in this world that I give a fark about?" malaise, a good freakout from the better half snaps me out of it when I go into protection mode.

/That is depressing in it of itself.
//The worst part is waiting for the bad days and feeling angry at myself for being complacent during the good days.
 
2013-05-10 01:17:55 AM  

snortimer: Insanely accurate description of depression.  I wonder how many people would give a shiat if she was fat and ugly though.  Yeah, that's what I thought.


I would. I might be bi, but she's not my type. I just think she's a funny farking lady who deserves to have a good life. I became a fan without ever knowing what she looked like.
 
2013-05-10 01:22:42 AM  
TaterTot_HotDish:

I liked a lot of your posts in this thread. Come hang out with us in TFD.
 
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